Be My Escape...

I’ve given up, on giving up slowly,
I’m blending in so you won’t even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention
Is my one last shot at redemption
'cause I know to live you must give your life away

And I’ve been housing all this doubt
And insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging you,
I’m begging you,
I’m begging you to be my escape

I’m giving up
I’m doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
And insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging you,
I’m begging you,
I’m begging you to be my escape

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can’t ask you to give what you already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
And insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
That might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging you,
I’m begging you,
I’m begging you to be my escape

I've fought you for so long
I should have let you in
*Ohh how we regret those things we do*
And all i was trying to do is save my own skin
*Ohhh*
but so were you...
so were you...

TV Tuesdays...

Gotta do sumthin about mai werk...
Spiraling into de abyss...
Cant wait to get out of there...
1 more month... tahan bradder, tahan bradder...
Juz came back 2 werk today, kena tio meeting...
Wth!? Nobody said nuthin' sia...
Luckily did some homework over de long weekend...
Den got Waste.Important.Time.Sia day in de aftanoon...
Shahid diz, Shahid dat... Setup diz, setup dat...
Where de freakin' mic.? Dey say duwan bah...
I cursed and swear.. Screw all those mangkukz lah...
Haiizz... Want 2 relakz also cannot...

(...Some deleted text here..)
Suddenly became like Tom Cruise character in Tropic Thunder... Heh..
"First, take a big step back and literally F**K YOUR OWN FACE..!"
LOL..! Classic..

Aniwaes, note 2 self...
Always need 2 come back early on Tuesdayz...
Nice TV shows on Tues... :)

Tropic Thunder...

Watched Tropic Thunder yest @ Vivo...
The muvee was awesome lah...
Definitely The Best Comedy Show this year..!
Simply hilarious... Buay tahan sia...
To me Robert Downey Jr sto;e the show lah...
His character super joker... Laugh mai ass off...
If you haf tyme durin' diz long weekend, go catch it...
N dun miss the trailers before the start of the show...
Some farnie shit ass trailers... Especially RDJ's... ;)
Cameo's were fun...
Tom Cruise was also farnie... imagine dat...
N diz muvee has alot of memorable quotes...
Again RDJ's character is the farniest...
Go watch it...

Dumbness...

Did a dumb thing juz now... i so full of it...
Was bathin' N found out that I am at the last bit of my face cleanser...
So i squeezed the livin' hell out of the tube onto mai hand...
Den Champion me, started massagin' mai hair wif it..!
Relax onli...
Afta a few seconds, i finally realised it.. Dang...
Had 2 wash it off den shampoo...
Wat an idiot...

Motivational Posters 4...

Alritez, here are mai final Motivational Posters...
Njoy..!

Sentence for the day...

Got my draft artwork 4 mai wedding card 2day...
Kaoz, got 4 mistakes sia...
Luckily i check properly... yeesshh...
Muz go for the 1,534,245.89th screening for mistakes...
I write properly also got mistake... cock eye ah.!?
Machiam like purposely liddat sia...

Havin' a headache since werk juz now...
Ma mind is in a conflicted state since morning.. damn...
Wat iz right.?, wat is wrong.? i wonder...
Having that interview in the aftanoon, made it even worse...
I look like an idiot in the video...
Watz wif mai hand gesture sia... im not in de army... fuk...
Better make maiself scarce during that event...
But how can..? There's sure 1 cock thing dat i have 2 do 4 them dat day...

There is no escape, there's only sacrifice to hope for something better...
There, 1 dumb sentence a day, keeps them farkers away...
Eh wait... Make dat 2... Kheeeee... ;-p

Marksman...

Here's another excel game i got 2day...

http://www.filefreak.com/pfiles/76486/Marksman.xls

Shoot dat m#%!$f%#k&r..!

Logo Guessing Game...

Logo guessing game...

I got 120 out of 220...

http://www.filefreak.com/pfiles/76486/Logo%20Guessing%20Game.xls

Enjoy..!

I'm Yours...

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's gonna to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment, maybe sing with me
All - ah peaceful melody
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I love one big family
It's your god forsaken right to be loved, love
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I like happy family
It's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I like peaceful melodies
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved

My Video Post...

Never really like Rihanna much but...
I like her style/attitude in diz vid...
Imagine if all the minah-minahs act like her in diz vid...
Baru ader class...! lol..

Aniwaes, mai dept had a DeepaRaya celebration last week...
N dey invited diz Vasantham star, Shabir...
N our 1st SG idol Taufik..!
Got 2 of his performance... Take a look...

Sorry for the noisy background... Battery low lah...



Apparently, im no gud @ takin' vids... shaky...

Also had a chance to take a photo wif him...
Plus another group photo too...
Okaylah, he's quite a nice guy... kewl

N no, datz not mai hand on his shoulder...

Hensem tak..? Not Taufik but me lah... :)

Busy Year End...

Hah, i tink itz tyme 2 update mai blog...
Been bz diz past 2 weeks...
Gonna get more busy by the week...
Next week, mai head will be on the chopping block...
Chop off, chop off lah.... (cannot do anythin' liao...)
Tried mai bez 2 settle it...
Mai God, I thot by year end things will slow down...
But then, itz de other way ard...
Goin' 2 meeting after meeting...
Project afta project...
Event afta event...
Almoz blowing up sey...
Keep doin' N doin' N doin'...
When will it end..?

I am grateful dat Armie did not grant me deferment...
Truly a blessing in disguise...
Duwanna look stressed out during mai wedding...
Nid to get back on mai fitness too...
Wanna look mai bez for the wedding... :)
1st draft of mai wedding card shuld be done by de next few days...
Havent actually list down mai invitation list...
Hahahaa... Soo last minute...
Shuld i make 400 or 500..? Can i reach 500..?
Or shuld i juz play safe @ 400.? Pening ah..
Hantaran all ready but disorganized...
Getting help from mai cousin's family...
They specialised in wedding stuffs... heng ah...
1 less worry to worrie about...

Catering and Decor still okay...
Next week's gonna be de site viewing...
Hopefully the place is okay for them... Pray hard lah...
Scared too small leh...
Den there's the table-tennis thingy...
Hahahhaa...
Mai void deck would have a table tennis table in de center...
Gonna invite Tian Wei & Jiawei for a match...!
Khahahhaa... Entertain de guests while they eat... Lepakz...
I am full of nonsense ideas lah... ;p
Nid 2 beautify mai car for the event too...
Budget lah, so use own car... (can rite..?)
Oh well...

Anyways, remember dat tyme where i said I had a business idea...
Well, ppl actually beat me to it... (dang...)
They did a slightly different version of it...
N they made it FREE..!
Mai idea was 2 charge users for it.. (on demand lah...)
Not for the info but for the service...
But, again i stressed, they made it FREE..!
Better yet one of the 2 "inventors" is mai fren...
He was featured in today's paper...
Not a very close fren but we were in a class for afew years..
Dunno if he still remember me... Well, kudos to him...
Tinkin' of getting in touch wif him and share mai ideas...
Let him evaluate N decide...
Well, since u cant beat them, join them... hahhaha..
If he steal mai idea, dun care lah...
@ least i did sumthin' gud in diz life... Help spread the love...
Only God knows...

Wordle...

Stumbled upon diz webby...
Wordle.net
Go try it...

Selamat Hari Raya...

SMS sent 2 all...
A weak attempt 2 rhyme diz year's greetings...
++++++++++++++++

Tiap tiap tahun nak anta kad confirm tak sempat...
Actually, sebenarnya memang tak buat... ;p

Kali terakhir ku beraya sebagai bujang lelaki... :D
Ingin ku mengucapkan, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri..!
Maaf Zahir & Batin...
Salah, silap harap maafkan...

++++++++++++++++
Jgn ckap kad raya, kad jemputan pun belum buat...
Khahahahaaa....
;p

What The Irony...

Here's the events leading up to the ironic event...
Sun nite wuz @ CT Hall till 3 am...
Clearing up all the stuffz N watever...
Went Newton Circus for drinks...
Reached home nearly 5 plus...
Slept for like 2 hours N off 2 the office next morning...
Crazy huh..?
Wat2do, duty calls...
Diz equates to Fatigue...
Anywayz, zombified me, cleared all my work in half a day...
Eyes damn heavy, brain functioning only @ 50%...
Working alone as the rest were on duty off...

In the second half of the day, met my Dear...
To settle a major problem... (of which i cannot disclose...)
Diz equates to loss of Concentration or occupied mind...
Problem could not be settled there N then so had 2 come back later...
So Syg joined my family 4 break fast... (proud of her..)
Had 2 drive my mum 2 Sheng Siong for our Hari Raya groceries...
Busy week preparing for F1 and Hari Raya...
We then head 2 Geylang for Dear's final Raya purchases...
Crowded sia the place...
Parking was disastrous...
Luckily got diz car which was going out so I took the lot...
Free parking somemore... (hehehee..)
Took off ard 11 plus N again caught in the Jams & Penut Butter...
Finally settled the major problem around 12 plus...
N diz is where the shit happened...

Drove off from my parked car N was near Syg's workplace...
It was a normal drive for me except it was late @ nite...
Datz where I saw it, a Puleeze car...
It wuz juz driving out from a petrol station...
Heck care so I juz drove as per normal...
Nearing diz junction saw diz car wifout itz headlights on...
Wuz telling my Dear how dangerous it is...
"Maybe saving battery bah" i joked...
So @ de junction, i wuz beside it...
So gave de driver a hand signal for itz headlights...
Not sure if she acknowledge, so i juz drove off... (aunty driving..)

Continued my journey again, for a while...
Itz was a 70 km/hr road and i wuz drivin ard the same speed...
Some cars pass by me N den I saw it again...
The freakin Puleeze car tailing me from the back..!
It quickly sped up beside me N pointed 2 the front...
I asked Syg wat they want as she wuz blocking my view...
Next came the blinkers N a short siren... (kaozz...)
I kena flag down by a Puleeze car sia...(machiam in the muvees liddat...)
So i stop @ de side, hazard lights and wind down...
Heart wuz beating very fast sia, coz dunno wat i did wrong...
Din tink I wuz speeding... (alot more cars faster than me...)
Definitely not drunk drivin... (i steady driver...)
Den i thot, shuld be becoz of my Zhng car... (oh crap..)

Then stepped out diz young officer N walked 2 my side... (shuld be PNSF..)
PO - Good morning Sir. I need you to step out of the car please...
Me - Ok.
Din feel like asking him wats wrong so juz obey lor...
Walked 2 de back and he asked for my IC and Driving licence...
After doing so, he explained why i was flagged down...
PO - Sir, the reason we stopped you is because you were driving without your headlights on...
Me - What The Fuck..!?
Hahahahahhaaa...
You shuld haf seen my face and reaction @ dat time lah...
Moment of disbelief, anger, laughter, disappointment all @ the same time..!
Imagine the irony, there I was informing other drivers to switch on their headlights...
Where I had not done so myself..!
Then he continued...
PO - Under section... bla, bla, bla... No demerit points... $30 fine...
Me - Wah kao eh...
PO goes on asking where i wuz going, how come nvr switch on the headlights...
So i told him the scenario that happened... (dunno whether he believe me...)
Luckily he not kuai lan, else i will put him on the spot...

Din tell him who I was also, coz dun tink it would make much of a difference...
But kena fine 30 bux, quite taxing eh...
Havent even Hari Raya muz give away $$$ liao...
Give 2 gubberment somemore... (pui..)
I thot they shuld practice some leniency...
Give me warning, hear me out...
It wasn't on purpose and definitely wasn't posing a threat 2 others...
No, he straight away saman me... (iskh...)
Aniwaes, after all's done, went back 2 the car and told Syg about it...
She felt bad N told me itz her fault... (dun worry Dear, not your fault..)
She also did not realised dat i nvr switch on the headlights...
It was my wrong judgement, my carelessness, my bad...
Haiiizzz, juz haf 2 wait for the Letter lor...

Do you think I shuld appeal to waive the fine..?
Those words i wrote in blue would be the reasons...
From F1 to sleep to work to major problem to Hari Raya...
To fatique to remind other drivers to not on purpose to carelessness...
Would my reasons be valid..? (hmmm...)
C how lah, when i get the letter...
Truly Shakespearian sia diz episode...
Kena saman by de ppl i work with...
Reminding others on a mistake I got penalised on...
2 relatively new drivers who cannot spot a clear mistake...
Moral of the story is, look at yourself first before you look at others...
2nd moral of the story, install an auto-light surrounding sensor...
Which can switch on your headlights automatically when its dark...
Period.