Our Story...

Here it iz de post i've been longing 2 post...
Diz post iz meant 4 mai Sayang...
Itz also 4 mai reference/rememberance.. :)
Presenting 2 u, History of Shahid & Zarina...
My Fairytale Story...
;)


De 1st tyme i met her, wuz @ Burp.. (old werk makanplace..)
Wuz eatin wif ma bradder when she N her `gang´ came.. (hahaha..)
Din quite converse much back den.. (i shy guy wat..)
Well afta dat, we crossed paths but i nvr said anithin.. (stoopid..)
All de way until 1 faithful dae,...
I added her in friendster, due 2 irritating pestering by mai bro.. (thks kai..!)
Which den, lead me 2 add her in MSN too.. (where it all began..)
I can still remember our veri 1st chat.. (ah yes..)
Well, havin de log helps 2.. (khehehee..)
It wuz de longest 1 on 1 chat i had wif a gal.. (let it b virtual or real life..)
We even touch on de topic of love sia.. (on our veri 1st chat..!)
Ironic eh.. (who would haf known eh..)
Almost every other nite we chatted N chatted, most of de time till..
3am in de morning sia..! (khahahaa..)
Den de next dae would c her in de morning.. (afta 2 - 3 hrs of slp..)
Those were de daes.. (miss dem Dear..)


N surprisingly, even tho i chatted wif her online every time...
I never actually talked 2 her face 2 face..!!! (can u believe dat.?)
Dat wuz how freakin’ SHY i wuz back den.. (wahahaha..!)
Tinkin back, i feelin dam dumb rite now sia.. (hahahaa..)
All de way till 15 July 05, when she hurt her leg,…
Onli then, I spoke 2 her.. (imagine dat..)
Den de nxt dae, afta much pestering, managed 2 get her hp no.. (huhuuhu...)
N even called her dat very nite N dis stupid me wuz lost 4 words sia.. (hahaha..)
She even asked me 2 sing 4 her dat nite..! (cannot 4get dat..!)
N den de nxt dae before my shoppin’ escapade,...
i managed 2 get her 2 join me... (hehehe..)
I newbie 2 West side mah, so we went out 2 Jurong Point dat dae...
On our very 1st “date”..! (wooo..)
17 July, my first “date” wif a gal afta soooo long.. (many, many yrs sia..)
Well, itz not actually a date lah, juz a hang-out...
Still remember wat we wore...
Me wif blue collar tee wif berms N she wore a pink top wif jeans n slippers...
She looked soo innocently sweet dat dae... (awww..)
Explored JP n Lot 1 afta dat... (had a nice dinner @ Banquet..)
1st “date” is definitely hard 2 4get... :)


So as tyme goes by we chatted our nites away...
Den @ werk, when she din haf her own email account...
We would SMS 2 each other 2 communicate..! (hahahaa..)
Farnie sia.. In de same lab but still SMSin 2 each otha every morning..
Dunnoe how 2 say diz but afta some time, i developed feelings 4 her.. (yeapz..)
But 2 bad 4 me, back den, de feelings wasnt mutual... (poor thing...)
But every chat wif her, i did give her some hint or 2...
But unluckily, she din get any of those hints... (kwang3..)
Since i wuz unsure about her feelings 4 me, didnt 1 2 gamble our friendship...
I would rather us be frens, den me stupidly destroyin’ it...
In otha words, i wuz a Ku Niang lah.. (hahaha..)
But hey, i treasure friendship u noe.. :)


So it remained 1-sided till a competitor came into de picture...
Yeapz, a romeo came into her lyf... (den how.?)
She even kept it from me sia, tinkin i dunnoe... (hahaha..)
Well, de observant me knew about it all along.. :)
Den slowly, i wuz neglected bit by bit... (relegated 2 side bench sia..)
But still i din reach out 2 her N pour out my feelings... (nonono...)
Kept it 2 myself, not telling a single soul... (juz me..)
Den there wuz 1 time she asked 4 my advice regardin’ relationship...
Ironically i said, (diz is word 4 word...)

If u love someone, let him/her go...
If he/she comes back 2 u, den she's de One...
If he/she doesn't, den move on wif ur life...

I believed in those words N juz look @ me now.. :)
Well den, when she wasn’t in my radar animore, a gal came into de picture..
So both of us had our own lives wif another partner..


Surprisingly, both of our "dates" din last.. (coincidence..?)
Well i tot, afta de whole thing my feelings 4 her had disappeared..
But boi, i wuz wrong.. (it merely diminished..)
So we continued on wif our thing.. (chats, msgs, emails, talks..)
Tried 2 4get her but it wuz hard.. (somewhere in my heart kept my feelings 4 her..)
Up 2 a certain point dat i almoz given up hope... (no chance bah...)
Juz one-sided, so might as well move on correct..?
Until an incident changed de whole situation...
She made me feel dat i am an important person in her life... (top priority..)
Even tho there were otha ppl in her lyf, i wuz her choice... (totally made me confused sia..)
Den another incident where she had a disagreement wif her fren..
Boy, dat situation made me, even me, affected sia... (emo sia...)
Juz comfort her de bez i could... :)


Well, by den, i paid so much attention 2 her... (feelings got more N more..)
She wuz de last thot in my mind when i went 2 sleep...
N de 1st thot when i woke up... (juz could not get her off my mind..)
N yet, I din tell her how i felt... (kept it in me..)
At dat tyme, my mind told me 2 let her go... (juz b frens..)
i told myself dat if i were 2 get attached wif her.. (bf N gf..)
i would not get out of de shithole aka workplace.. (she would b pulling me back..)
Den there wuz de uncertainty where she mite not like me back...
i thot of all de possibilities.. (i tinker wat..)
N de negative points were definitely greater... (yeapz, true, true..)


BUT, on de otha side, my heart told me 2 go 4 it... (brayn say 1 thing, heart say another..)
i knew i would regret it if i din give it a go... (wasted chance..)
i really2 wanted 2 b wif her...
So as days goes by, i kept probing 2 find out if she had feelings 4 me...
But 2 no avail.. (poor thing..)
She realized dat i wuz kinda acting weirder by de day.. (isnt dat normal..!?)
N she kept probing me on my feelings... (now i kena target.. hahaha..)
Until 1 day, i cannot take it animore... (woooo...)
i juz told her dat i actually liked her..! (mastered de courage..)
My actual words were...

(translated to English...)
“...well to tell u de truth, I tot juz bcoz of dat nite, u had feelings 4 me...
budden I guess not.. itz onli I who have feelings 4 u...”

Still remember de wait 4 her reply.. (thru sms..)
Seconds seems like hours sia..!! (can die sia..)
Wuz really hoping she would say dat she also liked me back BUT... (gasp.!)
She replied, de bez answer eva frm her...

“...Ohok, since when? How come I din noe?...”

WAHAHAHAAA..!!!
Afta dat it felt like i wuz fallin’ a never-ending hole sia.. (simply felt like shit..)
Wuz downhearted 2 de lowest man... (poor me..)


Den dat very nite, i called her N we had a super long chat.. (seriously long...)
Told her everything, A to Z..
Also told her i felt malu sia.. (1 sided affection mah..)
Den 2 save some face, i told her dat it wuz an accomplishment 4 me...
2 express my feelings 4 her..! (hahahaa..)
N she gave me credit 4 dat... (khehehee..)
But never did she once told me dat she liked me back.. (teruk ah..?)
She did howeva told me 2 give her time 2 tink about it.. (argghh..)
In my mind i wuz like, wats there 2 tink about..!? (hahahaa..)


Afta de revelation, we kept talkin’ as per normal...
Abit awkward @ 1st but it got betta... (phew...)
N since she din gunned me down completely... (means i still got chance lah.. hehe..)
Diz romeo worked his magic... (abacadabra..)
Bit by bit, i showed my love 4 her... (eh wah..)
Gifts la, date lah, show my concern lah, lunch wif her lah, sent her home lah..
Well in a matter of tyme, she wuz caught by my lovetrap... (hahahaa..)
Who could resist rite..? (kheheheee...)
;)


Still remember de 1st tyme we were close 2 each other..
Accompanied her 2 watch her sis in a competition.. (Dance Works..)
Den on de way 2 makan, I held her hand.. (suddenly happened sei..)
:)

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Eh wait lemme recall, 1st tyme she held my arm wuz..
Back when it wuz a rainy day, on de way 2 werk.. (took de company bus..)
We were’nt 2gether at dat tyme... (juz frenz..)
Dat morning she saved me frm de rain.. (de feeling wuz nice sia..)
So close 2 each otha in de rain... (she held mai arm u noe...)
1 umbrella, 2 of us, rain all over... (romantic ah..)
Din mind getting wet at all...
De 2nd tyme we held hands wuz when we took a muddy shortcut...
Afta watchin’ a football game with de group... (hahahaa..)
Wuz tryin 2 ignore her dat tyme... (but had 2 cum 2 her rescue..)
She held mai hand so tightly dat nite... :)
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So anywayz, afta dat date, i wuz convinced dat she liked me liao.. (hehe.. confident sia..)
So in 1 grand gesture, i asked her 2 b my girlfriend... :)
But not b4 i told her everything.. (N i mean everythin..)
Still remember, was stammering when I asked her.. (hehehe...)
Finally, de gurl dat i haf been chasing 4 centuries.. (cey..)
Is wif me by my side... (sooo happie..!)
No more feelings of loneliness i had...
Now I haf someone special liao... (N i 1 2 spend de rez of my lyf wif..)
:)


N datz de story of ma proud achievement... (so shiok ah..)
Rite now we r 2gether for 1 year liaoz... (so fast tyme flies...)
Longest relationship i've eva had...
N I love her wif all my heart... (i truly do..)
Sayang,..
Happy 1st Anniversary...
I Love You Dear...
Muuaacckkss..!